Monday, September 11, 2006

before the show


before the show
Originally uploaded by Jacks mom.

My dad says that with some work I could be a good writer, well on days like this when there is so much to say I wish I were a good writer. It seems that at age 31 the important stuff is just now arriving at my doorstep. Like how do I really love these people in my life. How do I tell these kids about the God who loves them so much it makes me weep. And that is just for starters. Something else that I have struggled with this summer is identity. I can be so cruel to myself. Too fat, too loud, not gentle, not loving are some of my favorites. But there is grace. In my parents house this summer I took a break from StL and went back home. As much as I wanted my parents to fix everything they didn't. We didn't even talk about everyhting but I listened. This is what I heard. God loves you. God loves you. God loves you. The picture to the right was taken last friday night at the Over The Rhine concert. I have been going to thier concerts since 95 and everytime I go I love it. I stand there with the music I love and think about the year, the good and the bad. Sometimes I leave discouraged but not this time, God is good and his mercies ripple out to me from the speakers every day. I need to stand still more often to listen to this truth, God loves me.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

hang in there. the great thing about days is that you can almost start over. What if life was one day? ARG!

trying to focus.

b

Anonymous said...

hang in there. the great thing about days is that you can almost start over. What if life was one day? ARG!

trying to focus.

b

Anonymous said...

of course you're a good writer, the better question is how do you become a great writer?

oops about the redundant comment.

b

Maria said...

Who went to the show with you? Lucky!...and it's so good that you got a moment to think and be refreshed and reminded of truths. Thanks for taking a moment to teach them to us.